Is the juice worth the squeeze? hotsell Original

“During this cycle you'll be pushed to confront what's preventing you from feeling a sense of inner security. You'll uncover anything you've kept hidden from yourself. You may fear that you'll never find peace, or you may have the urge to overturn ordinary reality. This time can be uncomfortable, painful, and trying, but the intention is for you to question everything you hold to be true.” - The Pattern. I sought external praise, I sought to be awarded, to be acknowledged from the outside. Any time I'd accomplished something, I'd feel briefly validated, but immediately question why In fact someone like me had gotten it, when clearly any other candidate was better. All the while hearing whispers from insecure people about how I didn't truly deserve what I'd achieved, which further validated why I had to work ever harder to achieve their approval. Seeking external validation is hollow. It was only when I began to hotsell appreciate myself for myself, that their external praises felt as hollow as they truly were. It was then that I began to question the why's. Why I am here? Why do I do this? It was then that I began to realize, that their admonishments had led me to believe that I was somehow special, unique, destined, when in truth, I am but a leaf on a tree, in a vast expanse. I am but a component of a greater being. The universe and I, like every other leaf, every pebble, every tiny bacteria, share this energy and existence. I'm not special. This is the death of that belief. With all death, new life is born.